Strangeness...

Have decided to write this "diary" in both English and Swedish since I have caught myself with thinking in both languages during the last couple of weeks...

Sometimes I find it easier to express myself in English than in Swedish for some odd reason..
Maybe it is because of my blend of everything here in Czechia or something else?
I mean, at work I blend Swedish, Norwegian, Finnish and English..

There has been a stormwarning issued here in Czechia today..
It is extended until saturday with winds reaching hurricane strenght.
Just now my lights in my livingroom was blinking at the same time as the winds were roaring around my window, Somehow I found it somewhat comforting with this weather.
Maybe it is because it can´t be more "nature" than this..?

I have also the last week felt somewhat "homesick" for some odd reason.
Not that I consider Sweden as a home anymore, but more because of the realations I have with people there. Friends who are friends.
People who know me, and have known me for quite a while.
I don´t feel lonely, as matter a fact I enjoy being alone as much as I have been the last couple of weeks since more or less everything crumbled to dust due to persons with psycological problems. I just get back to that place where I was before I moved.
I guess that was also what actuially made me realise that during these 6 months that I actually have lived in this country more or less haven´t given me anything then insight that people aren´t really that different when it comes to different parts of Europe.
It is just the language that changes.

Antar att det är det som kallas för erfarenhet?
Och det var ju det jag var ute efter.

Berättade för Miro idag att jag kommer att flytta.
Hennes reaktion var ganska intressant.
Inte riktigt den jag hade förväntat mig.
Hon vart mer stum.
Förvånad. Nästan lite besviken..
Eller som hon sa.. "I don´t know what to say?"
Hur ska man tolka det egentligen?

I don´t really understand why the only intresting things I have found here during these 6 months has already taken. maybe that is the reason.
Because they were intresting..

But that is a part of life I guess...

You live, you learn...